He who blogs last blogs loudest

I have no idea what that title means and I'm blogging in Arial font for optimal erotisizism.

I love you and its gonna be hysterical in the not too distant future when we look back and see all that God has brought us through and though it was no fun at all it was life and we lived it the best we knew how.

I don't understand why people do what they do or say what they say. All I care about is making sure that you and Liv are taken care of and that I am there for you. Even if work takes me away sometimes or schedules get hectic. I'm always beside you. If you and Liv are proud of me and glad to have me then God has answered my prayers. I ask him to help me be the man you both need me to be. I can't please everyone so I'm determined to please God and the two most important people in my life.

I screw things up and make things tough sometimes but that's not the problem. Life is full of challenges. The problem is that when it comes time for a solution I take over and allow God one slip in the suggestion box. No more of that ever. It's him all the way. I'm done trying to figure things out and make things happen. I'm not moving til I here from him and I don't care what it takes. My family will prosper in the Lord because obedience and faith will be my highest priority. God will honor that.

I've never been anyone or done anything to Donna to make her say a single negative word about me but she does. That's fine. I'm just gonna keep being me. If its not enough now then it never will be. I can rest my head at night knowing from the moment she joined my family till today I've been on her side and there for her as much as anyone. I've respected her and done for her more than her own son. I never treated her like a stepmom and I welcomed her into my life and even in the moment when she lay in that hospital bed and prayed with my tears falling on her. I never said an ill word or adjusted my love.

Trust can be damaged but my God shows me love and I use his love as an example. I love everyone in my family and I would do anything for them. I'm not sure they would all return in kind but that's not why I love. I love because God first loved me. I hope I never lose that truth. That's why no matter what happens, if God loves me and you love me and Liv loves me; I don't care where I live or who is for me or what my stature is. I am a complete and whole man.

I love you and I feel bad for the millions of people in this world that don't know the love and warmth of being with that one special person that God crafted and uniquely made, (thinking of your boobs) just for me to spend my entire life with. They don't laugh like I do. They don't cry like I do. They don't see what I see. Anyone who has would cling and never let go. They'd leave fingernail indentions from the tight grip. I'm never letting go, not of you and the promises God has for us. Nothing can sepearte us. This love never grows old. Get those hot dog buns ready to feed the fish but its best you check the experation date. Those do grow old.